Return of the Snark
As of last night I’ve given the site a new lick of paint, and I’m pretty happy with the way it turned out. I think it looks less dense than before, subtler and more refined, elegant and ultimately more readable, which is the sole objective of a blogging site. I also rewrote a lot of the copy, on the home page, the about page and the blog intros.
For however long now (I guess roughly a year) I’ve had copy there that intentionally avoided self-deprecation, and I attempted to come across as positively as possible. And I hated it, every time I read it I would cringe painfully, I couldn’t even make it through my whole about page without having to take a break to suppress my nausea. It wasn’t my thoughts, it wasn’t my voice, it wasn’t me, and I don’t really know why it took me so long to change it.
And so now, we’re back to the snark, the attempts at humour where I am the butt of the joke. I don’t really believe that portraying myself this way is bad for my self-esteem, because it feels so natural, the words feel like my words again. I like trying to be self aware and funny, even if I do a questionable job at both. It feels like these pages show my personality again, rather than some kind of sterilised doppelgänger. It wasn’t helping my self esteem to talk about myself like that at all, if anything it was making it worse, I just felt like a fake.
It feels good to stop pretending in one little facet of my life.